Left to my own de-vices

My partner is currently away for work for a couple of days and its just me and my 13 yr old at home (he’s on holidays). Being that he is a 13 yr old boy he is either out with his friends, sleeping till noon, or playing xbox.

And that leaves me with the deafening silence and my own thoughts… never a good thing.

I managed to get some things done this morning but only because I rewarded myself with cigarettes. So I now have to start the quitting process over again. I feel so disappointed with myself for smoking again and at the fact that I seem to be exceptionally weak willed.

I am sure I used to be a much stronger person.

Guess that’s another thing I need to work on.